There is something so beautiful about the way the Lord work
in our lives. Sometimes we lose sight of the beauty when we become
desensitized by it. But I think our biggest problem is we forget. We are such
forgetful creatures in that we loose sight of what He has brought us from.
Each thing
He has brought us from is very different but when it comes down to the
emotional aspect of where we were, it’s incredibly painful for all of us.
Because I myself am a very imaginative person, I can get swept away in my
thoughts, sometimes for hours.
While it’s
handy for writing some pretty interesting fiction at also happen to be a great
burden when I begin pondering on the wrong things. My brain has the tendency to
turn a simple unfortunate situation into the most devastating life event that
persuades me to believe life would be better everyone else if I just ceased to
exist. And then I’ll try to justify these “suicidal” thoughts by convincing
myself it’s for others. I’m doing it for the better of others. I regret to say
my head has brought me to this place countless times. Thinking that because of
my actions, I have ruined other people’s lives.
Romans 13:14 tells us "...and do not think about how to gratify the desires of the flesh." A hard lesson that hit me in the face this week that I didn't even know it was a problem. Sure we can control our words towards other people, but our thoughts in our own head is so much more difficult.
And our focus! Where is our focus supposed to be? We keep thinking so hard that the
point of life is to serve others, and make others happy and comfortable and
while that is important, it shouldn’t be our priority! Our priority is serving
our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. Instead of asking God what we can do for
Him, we are off trying to make others happy, not giving a second thought to
whether or not the people we are pleasing, if that in itself is pleasing to
God.
God loves
us, even at our darkest! So why cant we just accept that and live for Him? Love
God, and Love others. That is what the two commandments in Matthew 22 are all
about. We've got to get these in the right order our life will be chaos.
“Jesus
replied: ‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and
with all your mind. ’ This is the first and greatest commandment. And the
second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself. ’”
Matthew 22:37-39